Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Wow. What an interesting day. Today shows me that some people who are insecured within themselves love to initiate a fabricated lie or predicament. I will not allow myself to stoop down to "her" level and construct something out of nothing making it bigger than it actually is.



The Conversation:

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Mackenzie (201765492)
To: Cindy
Date: Mar 18, 2009 11:12 AM
Subject:
do u even no who he is bitch
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Cindy
To: Mackenzie Date: Mar 18, 2009 1:11 PM
Subject: RE:
I'm sorry? I don't know who or what you're talking about? I don't even know you and you don't know me enough to call me a bitch. There's probably a misunderstanding. You know it's a little immature to approach a predicament on myspace...don't you think? So honey get your facts straight first, otherwise I'm not going to deal with this ignorant childish bullshit.Why couldn't you just advanced to me in a more appealing manner?

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Mackenzie (201765492)
To: Cindy
Date: Mar 18, 2009 1:39 PM
Subject: RE:
- dont be calling me that BITCH and why dont u go crawl back in to the FUKING FEDX TRUCK AND FUK YOUR GRAMPA I DONT GIVE A FLYIN FUK IF HE IS DEAD FUK YOUR SELF FUKIN U FUKIN MEXICAN FREAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PS I AM 16 YEARS OLD SO DONT FUK WITH ME U FUKIN AMERICAN CUNT BY THE WAY U ARE UGLY AS FUK AND MY CUSIN DOSENT EVEN LIKE NIGGER


My latest Reply:
First of all I did not name you anything nor use such diatribe. Thank you for your opinon but that does not disturb me. You can say whatever you please about me. I'm not the one that's throwing bullets--You are. I have no problem with you...I don't even know you. All I want is an answer to why you approached me in the first place?

By the way I'm not mexican. I'm asian. Your cousin? Who's that?! Nigger? Wow so I went from a mexican to a nigger? Yeah whaooo. What an awesome transformation. It's like michael jackson all over again.-___-

I don't care if you're 16 I am too, but does that make any difference?

You have nothing to say, so you bring my family into this? You must be really pathetic. God bless you.

Hmm Cunt? Want the definition? Cunt: a highly offensive term for a woman's genitals. I'm pretty sure you have one too..unless you don't.. =x

I can't quite understand where your going with this predicament. You need to work on your vocabulary and grammar skills. I'm pretty sure it'll help with your SAT's. Oh and good manners too.

why don't you think before you speak and think before you act?


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"If there is a negative, be a positive. Negativity leads to unhappiness, and positivity leads to love and success."
By yours truly, Cindy Dethsy

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

2008: The craziest year I've ever experienced. It was the year of many heartbreaks and mistakes. Everything had a twist or a turn to it. I for one, experienced it all. Now it's 2009, much has changed and yet..I still feel like something is missing. Like a next day's hangover, everything is getting to me and it feels as if I'm in an opposition with my past. The dilemma: confusion and curiousity... Honestly, I can't seem to understand a guy's mentality. It's either a yes or a no...a never or a forever, two extremes that never seems to have balance. I'm not trying to say that all guys are this way, only the guys that I've been with.

Number one: Yes. I do talk to my exes...but does that mean that I'm allowing myself to do a 180 and be with them again? No. Although I would give out flattering compliments, don't take it the wrong way and say I want them back. Nuh uh. Not how it goes. If I wanted you, I would've mentioned it. I'm not CONTRADICTING myself either. The bottom line is, I don't like having a chip on my shoulder or having a feeling of resentment towards a person or name.

Number two: It's true to think before you speak and think before you act. I don't know how many times "he" made promises to me and then threw me under the bus. Boy, what a ride he was. I wish he knew how victimized I felt at the time when he confessed and admitted to his infidelity. So many nights I couldn't eat and sleep, tossing and turning, thinking what he possibly could be doing. I mean...how would you feel if you have to find out your boyfriend or girlfriend is having sex or was nearly having sex with someone else behind your back? It was tough for me because I let him into my family and I thought that would encourage our relationship. I gave plenty of chances and still did I not see a difference. I knew what was next..he called the shots and broke my heart. I love him...but not as much as I did before.

Number three: The best thing to do is to take a deep breath and let it go.

"Every happening is a learning experience and every learning experience is a preparation for life."
By yours truly, Cindy Dethsy